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Thursday, July 26, 2007

Anticlimatic

All my life, always and always I'm always looking forward to these things...seventh grade I started looking forward to my freshmen year...

Everything will become clear
When you start your freshmen year

...That's when life would become EXTREME. That's when life would fall into place. Freshmen year came, and freshmen year went. I was so busy waiting for it all to happen and I never realized that nothing happened at all.
And it's not just stuff like that. Little things, you know? I went to jazz camp earlier this summer (and i wish i still had the blog that I wrote about that), and i was expecting to become the super-trumpet-player-jazz-fanatical-phenomenon! But, even after an amazing week, my life remains basically the same.
Sometimes i see that my life is going in a wrong direction and i'm getting some bad habits, so I say "This is it. My super life-turnaround point. From now on things will be okay."
I'm always waiting nothing ever happens...Why can't i just accept that my life is anticlimatic?
If I want change, I have to make it happen. And I'll have to keep making it happen.

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