Run, Katie, Run!

I know you've all been on the edge of your seats since my post this morning...*cough, no one's read it yet, cough*...

I thought I'd let you know that I've given it a lot of thought and I've decided not to give up on music. One friend of mine tried to convince me that playing in tune isn't really that important after all...I could start a new kind of musical movement! Another friend told me that I have too much potential to give up now.

Than I remembered something that the former mock trial captain told me in my time of distress:

"When you care enough about something you work hard and find a way."

This quote isn't the wittiest, most inspirational out there, but it's simple, straightforward, and so true.

It may seem like it'll never work out.
But I care about music so much.
I guess I can keep trying.
At least for a while...

I'll find a way.

It is 8:36 am, April 22, 2008. It's a Tuesday morning at Hoover High School, and today I decided to give up.
On Music.
It's ridiculous.
Seriously.
There's nothing making me stay anymore.
I was sitting in band this morning and I realized how impossible it is to play in tune.
That's all it took.
I'm done with this.

It's kind of immature, I suppose, to quit something that I've invested so much time in for something as trivial as that. But it's not trivial! It's the most important, most fundamental thing! And I've gotten this far without being able to do it.
Playing in tune.

I'm sick of dealing with my limited range and poor tone quality. I'm sick of the valves that stick and don't go down all the way. I'm sick of third valve slides.

I'm just done with this.

Whatever.

The gospel.
Let's say that everyone has a destiny. Here's the catch: You can choose whether or not to accept it; to live it out.If you don't choose to accept your destiny, than your life will be monotonous. It won't be amazing or thrilling.

But it won't be bad.


Once you accept your destiny your life will be both good and bad. Probably mostly bad, but you don't know.

This life is boring.
And nothing will happen to us once we die.

So in order to experience climax we must make a choice.
Some people make it early on.
Some wait until the very end.
Some don't make it at all.

It'll change your life. Forever.

There's B.C.
And there's A.D.
Soon there'll be A.S.C.

Heaven: A.S.C...infinity.
I'll be there.
Will you?

But it's not about going to Heaven or Hell.

It's about moving up to that next level of being.
Experience that which everything has led up to.

It's the one climax your life can ever have.
Your one opportunity for change.

You don't want to miss this.

But it

The one true religion/life-philosophy...probably not so much a religion.

climax-a thrilling event that changes the course of your life. the high point of action in a novel. or something like that.

We believe in an eternity.
We believe that everything that is happening has happened before.
We believe that exterior forces will not cause you to change your life.
We believe that you cannot change yourself from within.

Life is a series of quests. When you complete one you move on to the next--a smooth transition.

Ever since the beginning of time all the forces in the universe have been building up to a certain event, but due to the heat death of the universe, that event will never happen.
The universe will never suffer its heat death
At least not wile we're around

So what happens to us when we die? We go to heaven, of course! And gosh knows nothing new will happen once we're there.

So if you don't experience climax in this life, you sure as hell won't get it in the next one.

So, what's so great about climax anyway?
The universe is always changing, always building up, so we have both everything and nothing to look forward to.

My life is anticlimatic.
Is yours?

up next: climaticism---the gospel!!!

Yeah, so here are some of the things that have been going on in my life right now.

I got a job. I work at Ocean Beach Fries. I really like my job, and further, I think that it is the perfect job for me, coming at just the right time.

I decided to audition for Celebration Iowa, some kind of show choir/jazz band thing. If i get in, it would be all summer long. I hope that turns out well.

I'm captain of the Mock Trial team, and our competition was yesturday. There was so much for me to do, and I've really been working hard on this for a long time, so I'm really glad that we finally had the competition. I feel like the team was really able to pull itself together and do a good job. Because we went up against two really advanced teams, we will not be going on to the playoffs.

I'm doing really poorly academically right now. It's just hard for me to keep up with everything. I'm failing European History, the class from Hell.

that's about it right now.

*peace*