Run, Katie, Run!

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Sunday, August 26, 2007

Poison Ivy


Originally, the whole point of this blog was to write about the crazy adventures (and misadventures) that I experience as I strive to become a functioning member of the Cross-Country Team. That is why the Title is "Run, Katie, Run" and the url is "runningkatie". The idea was to allow my readers to go through the whole running experience with me, and to watch me improve.

Well, I've had this site all summer, and I haven't done much writing about cross-country. But now I have a horrible problem. About a week ago I stumbled into a patch of poison ivy. Now I have a hideous rash. It's on my face. It's on my arms. It's on my legs. It's on my stomach. It's on my back. It's everywhere. And my biggest fear is that it's still spreading.

I've been getting treatment for it, so now it looks a lot better, but it still itches. I'm supposed to stay inside, in the air conditioning, and keep cool. I shouldn't do anything that would cause me to sweat. And that means no running.

No running.

No running. I can't believe it. At first I thought that the rash would clear up right away and that I would only have to skip the first meet, but this thing could take weeks.

It's already been about a month since I've done any serious running, due to a combination of vacation, respiratory problems, and laziness. But now it's TIME for me to start running again, and I just can't.

I don't know how much more of this I can take.

1 comments Posted by Katie at Sunday, August 26, 2007

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

What I Want: Destiny

It seems like even when fate is working in my favor I can still manage to screw everything up. If destiny is the force that brings me towards what I want, than what is the force that keeps stalling? Is it my own screwiness? If that is so, than I am worried, for if a force assmall as I can change the course of even one destiny, than destiny is hardly something even to put hope in. But maybe all that is frustrating me is just a small part of a larger destiny, more flexible yet immovable: one that not even my screwiness will be able to screw up. I'll just have to trust that somehow, someday, all of these horrible frustrations will resolve themselves into something beautiful. Am I a hopeless romantic for thinking so? Unfortunately, that "beautiful" thing is probably not the thing that I am hoping for presently. I could sit here pouting about that fact, or I could accept that the stuff I deal with now is just temporary, but anything good that comes out of this mess, that beautiful thing I am waiting for, will last at least a bit longer. Maybe even forever.

I believe that the force behind all this "destiny", which is hocus-pocus talk, is God. He is orchestrating my life so that I'm always learning and always having opportunities to become a better person. I pray for what I want, but even than I know that it's silly. I, comparatively, have no idea what I want. God knows what I want today, wanted yesturday, and will want tomorrow. He knows what's best for me. The best prayers that I can pray ar that I would be willing to accept whatever he deems fit, and that my screwiness wouldn't ge in his way.

That's what I really want.

0 comments Posted by Katie at Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Sunday, August 5, 2007

My Biggest Stnank


If I learned one thing at camp this past week it was this: Do not judge people.

In my life I’m always having opportunities to meet new people, but I’m always judging them. Sometimes negatively, and sometimes positively, but it always ends up building a giant barrier between the person and myself. There are so many people that I will never be able to love, never learn from, all because I would rather look at them from a distance than take a chance on getting to know their heart.

I feel like crying right now, as I am typing this, because it is my biggest regret. People enter and leave your life all the time. And sometimes you only have one chance at friendship.

I urge you, readers! Get to know the people around you! Start a conversation. Ask them questions. Build relationships. It’s the only way to live. You cannot spend your whole life being afraid of the people around you. Don’t judge them.

0 comments Posted by Katie at Sunday, August 05, 2007

Saturday, July 28, 2007

RLBC

Well, for the few loyal readers that I have (and I'm sure there are a few out there), I would love to let you know that after a week of blogging almost every day, I have decided to leave you and not blog at all for one week.

Why, you may ask? Well, I'm off to RIVERSIDE, a place of fun and enjoyment, praising god and living the gospel. I'm oh so excited. i always have an amazing time at Riverside, and i'm really looking forward to the week and what God has in store for me.

See you on the other side.

0 comments Posted by Katie at Saturday, July 28, 2007

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Anticlimatic

All my life, always and always I'm always looking forward to these things...seventh grade I started looking forward to my freshmen year...

Everything will become clear
When you start your freshmen year

...That's when life would become EXTREME. That's when life would fall into place. Freshmen year came, and freshmen year went. I was so busy waiting for it all to happen and I never realized that nothing happened at all.
And it's not just stuff like that. Little things, you know? I went to jazz camp earlier this summer (and i wish i still had the blog that I wrote about that), and i was expecting to become the super-trumpet-player-jazz-fanatical-phenomenon! But, even after an amazing week, my life remains basically the same.
Sometimes i see that my life is going in a wrong direction and i'm getting some bad habits, so I say "This is it. My super life-turnaround point. From now on things will be okay."
I'm always waiting nothing ever happens...Why can't i just accept that my life is anticlimatic?
If I want change, I have to make it happen. And I'll have to keep making it happen.

0 comments Posted by Katie at Thursday, July 26, 2007

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